Apple of the day

"An apple a day keeps the doctor away"

Today is a happy day for me.Unexpectedly,i got my first apple(although it's not a full "A"pple) after spending most of my time munching on tons of readings.
I was feeling sick this morning when i woke up but that apple really cheer me up after the lecture .To many, it's NO BIG DEAL but to me,i am over the top coz at last,i can prove to myself that I CAN DO IT and i feel motivated to strive for more apples!

Well,maybe not overly confident.Nway,i will do my best and hope for the best for the final exam.That apple doesn't weight that much for my final grade,just happy that i got it after struggling for 1 long year in uni.Yeah yeah!

**Assignment time..................................

Free?!

Just that when i thought that i can relax a bit,i realized that my final exam is just around the corner.I still have one assignment to finish and a lot of readings to catch up!!
I do not know what to do,how am i suppose to plan for my revision ....this is a bad omen.

My mind refuse to catch up with the hectic schedule although i wanted to finish it badly.
My eye hurt everytime i blink as if there are knifes below my eyelids
This is really bad,i feel tired and exhausted.

Melancholy

“Maybe if I share the path I walk, i will feel less pain and there will be a day, where the pain will vanish.

I want it to heal; I don't care what it takes. I cannot live on misery or worry anymore. I want to devote my life to seek for my dreams, a dream with hope and happiness.

Maybe worries are good sign, it shows that I am still emotionally attached to that person even though I never stop denying him.

I wonder how it will be when I am totally numb to his actions and no longer care about his life or death. Although it sounds inhuman, but I hope that day will come to end all my suffering” **Fanky Boy

Noji

We are mold by the hands of God,
Each of us as a unique creature
in his work of art.

No one is similar,
Even twins,behave differently,
Each one of us has our own imperfections,
Some admit it and some don't.

Loving someone is
accepting all the flaws,
its hard but its possible,
we complain,
we fight,
we swear,
but deep down,
i know you're always there.

Endure

Time flies...exam is coming soon!!

sianz..

I love reading my story books,but i dont even have time to finish all my articles for coming exam.I am so busy with my assignments,my brain is cracking trying to think of what to write and how to fill up that 2K space.This is study life-how am i suppose to enjoy life like this?Everyday i feel like i am sitting on a turbo roller coaster which speed up within seconds.I never stop chasing after time -no relaxing moment for me to actually reflect on myself or to enjoy myself.Its just work,work and also work--never ending work.

What is life to you? Sometimes i wonder why are people working so hard? To be the slave of Gucci and Prada?
I do not know the answer , i am now chasing after Marx and Weber.I never stop learning about them and trying to know what are they thinking just like a guy chasing after a girl.The different is that,i am chasing after their knowledge and their skills but not their love.And,i don't need to try to impress them.

Ok i am writing rubbish ... 10 min break from my assignment is over.

Bad day?

Today is a bad day for me.Dont ask me why,i dont know.Somehow i just wan to be alone and spend my saturday without opening my mouth or entertaining anyone.

Bad day :(

Why?Where will i be?

Looking at my friends, graduating from school one by one-i cant help it but to feel left out from the crowd(my cohort) .Soon,i will be hearing wedding bells ringing ,a sign of new couples dedicating themselves to each other to the public.
It seems like i am so 'slow' in everything.How?
I cant slow down the tickling of the clock,I cant stop the world from going on just becoz of me-
i have no idea what will my future be......
Where can i go? What am i going to do?When will i get married?
Too much uncertainty,too complicated!
It is not the time to think about all these,it is better for me to spend more time on Marx and try to finish my assignment! I know,but i cant help it but to ponder on all these........
There is NO turning back in some of the decisions i have made.Yes i know!
But,it is not easy if you are on my shoes.
The frustration,insecurity,anguish..............................

**Age was nothing when you were a little girl;but when you are being put in a position where you're surrounded by many young ,active, vibrant girls-automatically,you will start to feel old and start to ask yourself why are you here

“Marx was wrong; jealousy and pride, emotional forces, are just as responsible as hunger and necessity for our actions; they explain the whole of History, and the initial fall of man.

--
Eugene Ionesco quotes

Read Read and Read....

"It is better to read a little and ponder a lot than to read a lot and ponder a little."
<sup>-Denis Parsons Burkitt

** What i am doing now is to read a lot and ponder v.little.I am like a hamster running on its wheel,trying to finish the impossible amt of readings i have!This is disaster!!!!!!</sup>

Humans

I am drowning myself in the sea where the souls of different philosophers live.Learning about their masterpiece and trying to picture myself being one of them fighting against the norms.It is hard and gives me headache everytime i try to think of ways to resolve inequality among the people esp in my mother country .Marx best explanation of the world is by the use the "dialectic process" by Hegel.He boldly state that there is no best solution in this world.The best solutions for this period of time will be another vicious problems in the future.It shows how amazing and unique human beings are( even twins have different characteristics and behaviors,ok side track a bit).But, if we think about it,human beings are really interesting.

To be continue....