No explaination

Dont know why things happen,
I wonder if it's a test of God,
IF it is,
Then i will surely be the first one to fail.

I never stop asking 'WHY'
although i have never receive any answer
I never stop being upset
although i have never stop trying to endure all the pain
I never stop myself from trying
although i have never successful.

I wish childishly,
that all these will disappear like the fog,
I shut my eyes tight
hoping everynight that tomorrow will be better
But,things never change.

I wake up frowning
afraid of what will come next
who can understand this broken hearted
even i,myself feel like a schizoprenia.