First day back to school

Today is the first day of school after a long holiday,
it's by no surprise that i dont feel excited at all,
not becoz i dont like to go to school,
it's just that i do not have the mood to learn anything.
I feel v.tired and lost in the school,
seeing other people laughing happilly with their friends, i feel so lonely inside.
Afiah was good to try to accompany me after lesson but sorry,
i didnt really want to talk much abt my problem.
I hate to let anyone see my weak side, maybe that's why i shun away from people and
choose to be alone.