I wish

Been feeling helpless and useless these few days..there is nothing that i can look forward to
What is life when someone has lost his/her interest in everything? even food?
I wish, i can go out and spend lots and lots of money like nobody business so that i can be gratified instantly,
I wish, i can just go for holiday, to a place where i can relax totally and free my eyesight from people i dont wish to see,
I wish, i can change the reality, to have the freedom to be who i really am,
I wish, he will vanish from this world sooner,
I wish, I wish..I wish!
All these stupid wishes, i wonder when will all these come true??