End of 2009; A new slave of labour is born

End of 2009- is when i will/supose to leave this instituition and be promoted to a more cruel and ugly big instituition(the society) where i will be confronted with the ugliness of this world face to face. I will no longer be protected by the my shield (book) and have to see everything from my myopic lens. My only protection?! My thick glasses.
I have mix feelings about this, i feel good knowing i will be the independent woman with my own carrer and life but on the other hand i am heavy-hearted knocking on the door of freedom/individuality. Yes, freedom comes with a price . Being independent is not about having night life and partying around but it means carrying the burden of family and responsibilty of own act.
Yeah..ambiguity, paradox....thts what life should be isnt it?
Life will never be completed without such feelings.
What i read from Foucault 5 minites ago, you can only be who you are when you are confronted with all the contradictions in the world.It is then you need to ask yourself what/where is the truth, without the need to care about the rules and regulations impose upon you.

Can life be so simple? Can we really hack care about the rules and do what we need?
Well, i wish to,that's what everybody wants right? But the reality is that, it is IMPOSSIBLE.
It is funny but also ironic when i think of the word "impossible" coz when i break it up it looks like IMPOSE by the powerful and dominant one + to make it POSSIBLE.
That's the world we are living and breathing in.