Friday, 19 December 2008

Reflection

I refelect on myself from time to time to ensure that i am living to the life that i want and aimed for.This trip to Saigon has been a meaningful one. I told myself to come with an open heart,embracing my title as the future sociologist:)
I observed alot of things here which make me feel very contented as i had a chance to see how others live their life here.There are times which i feel very sumpathetic towards the people who live in poverty here,but i also tell myself that i should respect their way of life.They may be poor,but they have their own way of leading their life and they have their own ways of searching for happiness. I should not sympathize them but i should respect them because i believe that all human brings in this world deserve sme respects from others no matter how much money they have in their pockets.

Things are done differently here..and it took me quite a long to understand why people do certain things, and it actually frustrates sometimes since i am so used to the bureacratic system which emphasize on efficiency as the utmost important criteria for the country. Well, in Saigon, people are more laid back and slow in their daily activities. Sometimes people do things such as transfering your goods from one basket to another after its being weight, instead of giving you back. Yes, puzzled me BUT it is interesting. I laughed to myself as i looked at that guy who kept throwing my fruits into another basket without giving it back to me. LAter did i know that i was supposed to collect all those from the basket which was 3 persons away from where i was standing. And i asked myself, why cant he pass it back to me so that i can put it in my basket since he is just beside me?!Funny!!!!! Well, it shows that they do learn from countries like Singapore who emphasize on effeciency and effectivenesss in their bureaucratic system.Isnt this scenario look like what you encounter when you're asked to put your passport and documents inside the basket by immigration officers instead of giving him straight away? GOOD JOB!

Trust is very important in every reltionship-be it girlfriend and boyfriend, or businessman and employees. But, what happen if there is lack of trust in some of these relationships? Well, you do it black and white! So, here, you need to handwrite contract when you purchase goods like furnitures and computers,then you passs it to the dealer. The dealer will deliver the goods to you on the date stated in the so called contract and then only you pay them.Well, its funny but its useful coz you dont want your grey table to turn out to be green table a few days later upon delivery...and people here are very 'forgetful'. One day its USD100 and the next day you talk to them, it will be USD 200.The price will always go up..but never come down.So they are real SMART!And you have to show them the contract as a prove, else you will surelly lose in the argument.

Also, people here wont reply your email if they dont understand your enquiry. L actually went to this woman who's a government officers but she didnt send him any notification.So, he went to ask her and her answer to him is"I dont understand you email" and full stops.Thus, the moral of the story is to make sure, you write something your receiver can understand else, you can wait years and years for the reply! heee..funny!

to be continued...............

Thursday, 11 December 2008

Bad News


I found out something really heart wrenching today, one of my classmates commited suicide on his 22nd birthday which is on the 1st December.I couldnt believe what i read, and thought that it was a prank by some other friends when i saw on their blog.

Although i am not particularly close to him, but all my RP classmates used to have lunch together and help each other in school work.
He was a positive and friendly guy.He's the youngest student in our class.Everyone used to call him 'Pentium 1' due to blurr-ness and also easy-going attitude. He was born colour-blind but did not complain anything about his deficiency. He's helpful and likeable person in the class as he's not kiasu like many Singaporeans. I think many would miss his laughter which used to be slower than normal people 5 seconds which make him famous for his slow reaction time.

Looking at the picure in this newspaper report, i can understand the pain his family is going thru. As his ex-classmates, i couldnt believe what i saw .His parents must be shocked as well as aggigated seeing their beloved son which has a promising future shattered in front of them.

His death has taught me a lesson, to cherish people around me as if they are going to leave anytime and to live my life to the fullest.

Monday, 17 November 2008

Struggle...

I am struggling to study what i do not like..how?how can i like this subject?
This is really bad!!!! I wish i can love all these theories !

Saturday, 15 November 2008

Stupid girl

I feel sad,
I feel miserable,
I hate putting on a mask,
Showing the happy self,
which everyone wants to see.

I feel fake,
I feel stupid,
Why cant i be myself?
and be accepted as who i am?

I feel like running,
I feel like flying,
To a place where i can free,
Free from all the attachments.

Am i selfish,
Am i dumb?
Am i asking for too much?

I want freedom,
I want it badly,
I want to do what i like,
without thinking about others?

Is it possible,
can i really do that?
Am i stupid
Am i dumb?! to even think that way?

I want to try,
I want to do,
I want to be different,
as my life is too constricted.

Am i stupid?
Am i dumb?
Not cherishing what i have now.

I love this place,
I love my family,
I love everyone,
but I also wish to love myself.

Why do i think that way?
Am i stupid?
Am i dumb?
Why cant i be satisfied with what i have?

Yes, i feel stupid,
i feel dumb,
and i dont know whether i am asking for too much.

i am 24, yet i feel like 12,
is it good or bad?
I feel like a child,
a child for too long,
i wish to do what i want,
a life of my own.

i am tired of being what other expect of me.
I am sick of being like a child,
i wan freedom,
i want myself.

Isnt this life?
To please ppl around you,
isnt this your happiness,
to see ppl around you to be happy?

Yes, it is indeed what i want,
but how about ME?
Am i stupid, amd i dumb?
To even wrote this silly thing.

Sunday, 9 November 2008

Exam is coming soon...

With all the assignments and presenation on hand, i am unable to concerntrate in my revision.This semester is very busy and tough. SU two subjects, but i am still very concerned over my grades.Hmm..i just hope that i wont fail..
Well, study study study....!!!!!!
Cant wait for this semester to end, it's a bad semester!

Saturday, 1 November 2008

Rollercoster---

Life has been a real rollecoaster these days!!
I've been introduced with lots of scheming tactics which i never knew before. It is now that i realised, how wicked and evil people can be. I feel sad, i feel disturbed listening to all these stories. Please, spare me! i really feel that life is miserable enuff ;than to have such people around you.
Just a google away, all types of scams appear in front of you. It will take years to finish reading...disgusting!

Wednesday, 29 October 2008

Where, where, where?!

Where can i get comfort and assurance?
Where can i go to have a nice rest?
Where?!
I wish to hide, in a jungle..creepy jungle
Where i can feel the nature and have the peace i once have.

When i look back,
i hate myself for being the sensitive one,
among the insensitive chaps ,
who never stop making my days stink like SHIT.

Yar, this is life,
we never stop meeting expectations,
we never stop putting our expectations on others,
trying to control each and everyone around us,
A detector!