- 2 scrapbook albums (ard 20 pages each)
- Bake cakes (sponge cake, apple crumble,tiramisu)
....coming up we will make Pandan cake!!! YUMMY!!! My tummy is getting BIGGER and BIGGER. - Transcript for Prof
- Books-Psychopath(halfway);Thousand Splendid Suns; ...and now looking for more interesting book
Saturday 31 May 2008
What i did so far..
What i did so far during the summer holiday:
Monday 26 May 2008
Loooking and looking...
I was looking at some pictures my friends posted on their blogs...dont know why, i feel envious with their exciting and fun lifestyle which was captured by the camera lens. I admit that i was a bit jealous, and also startled by their boldness to take so many pictures which portrayed the happiness they were having and put it online for the public to view.
As i grow older and older, i become more and more conscious with how i look. I take less and less pictures as my expectation of beauty changes, and i find myself look more and more ugly in front of the camera lens. Face too big, eyes too small, nose too wide, mouth too pout-y and etc etc.I end up not having much pictures of myself to make sb, and always make pictures of others.
I know that it is importance to accept yourself in order to enjoy your life to the fullest, but looking at myself in pic or even listening my own voice disgust me!
Well..after all the complains, i had a wonderful and fun time making 'cup cake' turned out to be humongous sponge cake with aunt. It was a fun+crazy+ exciting time since both of us are 'new bird' and do not have any experience in baking a cake ( oh..aunt claimed she has but i think it's a bit rusty since her last cake was way back in England).And, we didn't have enough butter, so we had to choose the recipe which need the less butter to accommodate our butter insufficiency cake making section! Well..the cake turned out to be quite yummy plus all the exciting yelling and screaming!hehe...
K missed the good times we had...bleak bleak!!
As i grow older and older, i become more and more conscious with how i look. I take less and less pictures as my expectation of beauty changes, and i find myself look more and more ugly in front of the camera lens. Face too big, eyes too small, nose too wide, mouth too pout-y and etc etc.I end up not having much pictures of myself to make sb, and always make pictures of others.
I know that it is importance to accept yourself in order to enjoy your life to the fullest, but looking at myself in pic or even listening my own voice disgust me!
Well..after all the complains, i had a wonderful and fun time making 'cup cake' turned out to be humongous sponge cake with aunt. It was a fun+crazy+ exciting time since both of us are 'new bird' and do not have any experience in baking a cake ( oh..aunt claimed she has but i think it's a bit rusty since her last cake was way back in England).And, we didn't have enough butter, so we had to choose the recipe which need the less butter to accommodate our butter insufficiency cake making section! Well..the cake turned out to be quite yummy plus all the exciting yelling and screaming!hehe...
K missed the good times we had...bleak bleak!!
Friday 23 May 2008
China Earthquake
I was watching this you tube video (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iTCIqDawjjs&feature=related) after i saw the news on the tv. This girl was criticizing the victims in China earthquake just because she cant play online game. I feel really angry as well as sad, seeing a young girl behaving in such an inhuman way. She is a total psychopath, as she possessed highest rank of the qualities that a psychopath has which are: i) selfish ii) unapologetic iii) not sympathetic and etc etc.
No one would blame her for not helping ,yet she blamed the victims for causing all the troubles.
What is life to her? The precious life, where every mother struggles to give birth to their dearly child vanish within seconds. All hopes are gone, all the good times with their loved one has now became memories which cause uncontrollable pain to every survivors.
It's cruel, this natural disaster is so cruel.But ,what's more cruel is the unsympathetic psychopath which is living in her own stupid world believing that the whole world owes her favor and should just follow her needs.This whole world should revolve around her stupid needs without caring for the emotional needs of the victims.
After all that the people has done, one stupid comment from this girl has broken the hearts of the thousands and caused a deep grief and anger to engulf in the whole country. IS that her motive?
All that has died, should be treated with respect and love.Each one of them are dearly to their families and friends. As an outsider, i share the grief as i follow the news about the earthquake.
All i can say to the survivor is that, you guys have been doing a great job.Staying alive is the right choice.Please be strong, for those who has died and live your life to the fullest for them as they do not have the opportunity as you do.
No one would blame her for not helping ,yet she blamed the victims for causing all the troubles.
What is life to her? The precious life, where every mother struggles to give birth to their dearly child vanish within seconds. All hopes are gone, all the good times with their loved one has now became memories which cause uncontrollable pain to every survivors.
It's cruel, this natural disaster is so cruel.But ,what's more cruel is the unsympathetic psychopath which is living in her own stupid world believing that the whole world owes her favor and should just follow her needs.This whole world should revolve around her stupid needs without caring for the emotional needs of the victims.
After all that the people has done, one stupid comment from this girl has broken the hearts of the thousands and caused a deep grief and anger to engulf in the whole country. IS that her motive?
All that has died, should be treated with respect and love.Each one of them are dearly to their families and friends. As an outsider, i share the grief as i follow the news about the earthquake.
All i can say to the survivor is that, you guys have been doing a great job.Staying alive is the right choice.Please be strong, for those who has died and live your life to the fullest for them as they do not have the opportunity as you do.
Thursday 22 May 2008
Bad dreams..
I am so tired of all the bad dreams i had.It's affecting my mood and making me grumpy the moment i open my eyes.ergh..how can i get rid of it!! REally hate it!!
I wish to have a good sleep without dream, so that i can get a total rejuvenating rest!!
I wish to have a good sleep without dream, so that i can get a total rejuvenating rest!!
Friday 16 May 2008
ME
Who can understand,
the miserable soul living inside me,
wanting so much to be set free
after being suppressed for the longest time.
Who can understand,
the cranky soul exist inside me,
wanting to explode and emancipate,
after being controlled by everyone around me.
Who can understand,
the innocent soul deep inside,
wanting so much to be loved and care,
after being sneered for multiple times.
Who,
Who can understand?
the real me,
the person i am,and want to be
No, no one.
Who cares to understand,
the tiny me,
the insignificant me,
No,you are right
No one
the miserable soul living inside me,
wanting so much to be set free
after being suppressed for the longest time.
Who can understand,
the cranky soul exist inside me,
wanting to explode and emancipate,
after being controlled by everyone around me.
Who can understand,
the innocent soul deep inside,
wanting so much to be loved and care,
after being sneered for multiple times.
Who,
Who can understand?
the real me,
the person i am,and want to be
No, no one.
Who cares to understand,
the tiny me,
the insignificant me,
No,you are right
No one
Thursday 15 May 2008
Life
After watching the news about the cyclone in Myanmar and earthquake in China, i cant help it but to feel vulnerable sitting on top of this world which no longer guarantee safeness. Or maybe i should say that, there isnt any '100%guarantee security' in the first place. WE are all living in risk, risk of natural disaster, risk of terrorist, risk of sickness ,risk of traffic accident and etc etc..
We are no different from the ants walking on top of the table, one hit, all gone.We are constantly confronted with cruelty beyond our control, I finally realized that life is not pretty and rosy but full of hopelessness and despair.
We are no different from the ants walking on top of the table, one hit, all gone.We are constantly confronted with cruelty beyond our control, I finally realized that life is not pretty and rosy but full of hopelessness and despair.
Monday 12 May 2008
Scrapbook
Making scrapbook is really fun but cleaning up is a real pain!!
I spend my whole day trying to sort out the papers and embellishments and etc etc...before i knew it, it's already 5pm!!!!! My whole afternoon dedicated to scrapbook cleaning and sorting.
Well well..a good start for Monday.
I spend my whole day trying to sort out the papers and embellishments and etc etc...before i knew it, it's already 5pm!!!!! My whole afternoon dedicated to scrapbook cleaning and sorting.
Well well..a good start for Monday.
Thursday 1 May 2008
Story Time
It has been over 2 years since i last met him,my heart has been pumping fast the moment i left my house.I tried to calm myself, reciting the same sentence to myself "Its going to be okay,just see his face then you can go home and have a peaceful sleep".It doesn't help at all, my heart pumped faster and faster,as if i was going to have a heart attack.I wasn't sure which direction i was going,all i could see is the past....black and white;just like in the movie.
His face appeared at the windscreen, his masculine face which can make every girl's heart sink.His big brown eyes shined like the star in the sky. He waved at me,welcoming my arrival with a big bright smile.I see myself, running towards him,returning him with a big wide smile as if i found my precious.
A loud horn woke me up, my body started to shiver. "Where am i?!". I continued to drive slowly, trying to find my way back to the main road."Calm down,calm down.Slowly,you can do it".
I drove through an alley, there were tombs everywhere."A cemetery!"shouted my heart. I tried to drive slowly out of the cemetary,the sky was turning dark. I couldnt see clearly which way i was going, everywhere seems the same to me. There was no road sign.
I took out my phone, wanted to call for help.Suddenly, i saw a tomb beside me. My body started to shake .I couldnt believe my eyes,this is impossible. What has happened? I looked carefully, "Jr Dave, Date of departure: 01-01-2008. What shall i do? What shall i do.Tears kept rolling down my cheek uncontrolably....i called his mobile, i called his house, i called every possible person that can tell me this is not true. Everyone is not answering the phone, i was gettign anxious! Where is everybody!
"Helo, who are you looking for?" someone asked knocking on my window. I cleared my throat and wiped my face...
(to be continue...........)
His face appeared at the windscreen, his masculine face which can make every girl's heart sink.His big brown eyes shined like the star in the sky. He waved at me,welcoming my arrival with a big bright smile.I see myself, running towards him,returning him with a big wide smile as if i found my precious.
A loud horn woke me up, my body started to shiver. "Where am i?!". I continued to drive slowly, trying to find my way back to the main road."Calm down,calm down.Slowly,you can do it".
I drove through an alley, there were tombs everywhere."A cemetery!"shouted my heart. I tried to drive slowly out of the cemetary,the sky was turning dark. I couldnt see clearly which way i was going, everywhere seems the same to me. There was no road sign.
I took out my phone, wanted to call for help.Suddenly, i saw a tomb beside me. My body started to shake .I couldnt believe my eyes,this is impossible. What has happened? I looked carefully, "Jr Dave, Date of departure: 01-01-2008. What shall i do? What shall i do.Tears kept rolling down my cheek uncontrolably....i called his mobile, i called his house, i called every possible person that can tell me this is not true. Everyone is not answering the phone, i was gettign anxious! Where is everybody!
"Helo, who are you looking for?" someone asked knocking on my window. I cleared my throat and wiped my face...
(to be continue...........)
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