I feel bad for feeling stress and upset.im supposed to be the happiest person on earth-with a husband and a super funny 2yr old son
But...i feel othrwise.why?am i starting to be greedy.i feel tht i have lost myself,my identity.Sometimes i ask myself...who am i and what i am doing with my life? Is this the life that i want? I have no answer for this.somedays i feel like a robot...doing the same thing days and nights and waiting for the nites to come and hoping tht nites can be longer before morning comes. Im tired exhausted and wish tht i can be myself for a day; why is it so hard?

Valentines day surprise from Huby

Hmmm

Life has not been easy..i hate myself for feeling that way.i feel helpless right now..not knowing how to solve this.it seems ive a relationship problem..or i have a problem myself and i do not know what to do.
Im shutting myself..other than sobbing to sleep everynite,theres nothing much i can do.Its another brand new day tomorrow...another day to show my tough face and bright smile to everyone.
Oh is this hormones playign tricks or what?Why do i feel so sucky?no..not just sucky,hopeless is the word.Oh well..be strong.life goes on...
The thing about motherhood is..u feel bad for feeling lousy becoz its only natural to feel happy to see your little cuddly bear lying beside you peacefully and knowing that tomorrow he will jump up and call Mama-ur heart just melt
YES- and now u feel even worst for feeling how you feel.ok..complicated!

Covet

It is again the time of the year that i wish i have a car and a maid...
Feeling so exhasted with fever and bodyache...that i wish i can just say goodnight and have a good rest tonight.ITS IMPOSSIBLE!

Everytime when im like this i wonder why do i have to go thru all these harship..then i will feel guilty for feeling that way for im blessed with so many things incl a healthy son and good husband and a house and many many more things.I shall be contented and not complain..

Oh well..its a cycle...and i guess it happens to me everymonth-PMS!

I found my blog...finally...

Oh well...i cant believe that i gave birth to a son and went thru all the hardship(breastfeeding etc) and hes now 16months old.Life passed like a flash after having him...of course there are ups and downs but everyday is a busy day with work,looking after him,cooking,cleaning and dont know what.Despite all the stress,i thank Gos for giving me my little baby.like evry child to the mummy-hes special and i just love it when hes beside me sleeping(and being so cuddly).Hes my adorable cutie pie and i love him so much so much.When i feel exhausted,i never stop reminding myself how blessed am i to have this healthy little baby.Thank you so much for answering my prayer,God.Forgive me for my shortcomings and help me to be a better mother,a loving wife,a sweet daughter and a kind friend to people ard me.

Why

Why is it so hard to let go?

Why is it so painful to think about her?

Why is it so agonizing to live without her?

Why?

Christmas pressie

I am so touched!

Bear bear bought me a big bottle of perfume and a huge bunch of flowers!

+ a gigantic love card

I love them all!!!